Moving out, away and on.

Hey gorgeouses,

A lot has happened since I last posted. December is such an amazing month. Don't you guys agree? Like you just get to be a kid for like a whole month! Wearing hideous sweaters, shirts, earrings- seriously the best. Just eating cute shaped cookies, putting up decorations and listening to different music than you do the rest of the year (sometimes I'll randomly put on Christmas in like July, but its just awk and not the same ya know?). The best is just the way you feel. You just want to like hand people dollars and skip around singing. Smiling. You just smile so much more without even thinking about it in December. I wish the world could be in Christmas mode all year-round. I don't even mean the whole presents and all that stuff, just how generous and caring people become in December. That's definitely a goal to work towards. Treating people like you do in December all year long. 

So my December was a little different because I wasn't at home this year. Well at least not for most of the month. For one, I had my first finals ever. Which actually went really well. I'm so glad. Whew. Other than that we attempted at decorating, made some Christmas cookies and we all even went through our closets to take clothes to a homeless shelter. Kinda like our own little grown-up Christmas. You really know you're growing up when you could kinda careless about when you get. I was just worried about getting other people things. I kinda love that I've changed like that. So much more thankful for the little things, more so the thought, knowing people were thinking about you. I can't believe how bratty I used to be. Counting the presents under the tree. Asking my mom daily what she got me or telling her what I wanted. Ugh I feel so bad now. Oh well the joys of being a tween slash teen.


I ended up coming home on Christmas eve, and am going back today (new years eve). I guess I just enjoy traveling on eves or something.. (this is when you laugh). But it's been super good to be home. Seeing so many people I care about and miss daily, getting sore playing just dance (yeah I'm THAT lame), and goin on a day trip to Vegas! I wish I could stay longer, but at the same time I just want to go back. For one reason, and that's it. 


Morgan is moving out. On Monday. I'm literally like SO sad. Another example of me taking something for granted. I am so lucky to have lived with my best friends this year. We've fought a few times, gotten closer or farther away, but most of all we've all learned a lot about ourselves. Morg has been working her butt off working and paying for everything up here. I look up to her so much for being such a grown-up. It just feels right to her, to sale her contract and move out. It will be better in the long-run for her. Plus it's only like 4 months till I'll be back for summer. But 4 months without my Morgie? 4 months too long. I'm excited to get to know a new person, it will definitely be a change. We are all so comfortable around each other. Like honestly, way too comfortable probably. I love Morg so much, and will miss her terribly. She thinks I'm lame to be so sad, but I just am k? I guess this is growing up. Moving out, away and on. So I'm gonna scurry my butt up there and spend every last second with my Shmorgie.

Morg and her Vans. Always.

She's not even like dying. I'm sooooo lame.


You know I'll keep you guys updated. I always do! And sorry if this is just rambling about nothing you even wanted to know about. But then again, I'm not sorry. Don't read it if you don"t want to. I'm not gonna make this all private and stuff, because I want to share my experiences and thoughts and hopefully help you guys in some way. Even if it's making you laugh cause I'm soooo lame. Haha love you all. And I hope you had the best Christmas ever.
xoxo
LL

I am. I want to be. I will be.

I am.
A dreamer.
A student.
A good friend.
A daughter.
A sister.
A good listener.
Usually happy.
An optimist.
A deep thinker.
A lover.
A cuddler.
Indecisive. Majorly.
Spontaneous.
Confused.
Smiley.
Opinionated.

I want to be.
A journalist.
A stylist.
A make-up artist.
A lawyer.
A psychiatrist.
A nurse.
A chef.
Famous.
An event planner.
A photographer.
Helpful.
Influential.
Successful.
Confident.
Content.
Appreciated.
Comfortable in my own skin.
Inspiring.
Loved.
Looked up to.
Always happy.
Too many things.

I will be.
Successful.
Married in the temple.
In love.
Loved.
Of service to others.
Influential.
Confident.
A wife.
A mom.
Happy. All-around, happy.

xoxo
LL

just thinking..

You know those nights where you just think and think and think.. about everything possible? It's one of those..

Right now for some reason I feel like I'm walking down the stairs with the light off. Ya know, when you don't know if there is a step or not? It's just a total guessing game. I feel like I'm on top of one of those rides that just shoot up, or drop you.. and you have NO idea when it's gonna happen. I feel like I'm turning left, but can't see if there are cars coming my direction because there are a bunch of other cars blocking my view. I feel like I'm about to open a present thats an absolute surprise.. and I'm so worried I'm gonna make the wrong "surprised" face and disappoint the person giving it to me.
I just feel confused. I know what I want in life, but at the same time I'm so confused. I don't know if what I want is what is right for me, or it's what I'm supposed to do.
As of right now I'm planning on going on a volunteer project next fall out of the country. I want the whole forget yourself and go to work. No make-up and and just wear a bandana every fetching day. Haha.. I really want to help people and at least know that I've tried to make the world a better place. Ya gotta look at yourself first and make the change as MJ would say (bless his soul). The thing is, is that I'll be missing a semester of school. I feel like I have forever to get my education and go to school. Well not forever, but I'm only 19! Barely! My parents feel the opposite way. They think before you do anything like that you should finish school. My mom said, "Finish school, then do whatever you want." Which also makes total sense to me.

I know I want a career in my life. I want my own money, I want to contribute to my family. I want to make sure I'm well off, without relying on my husband. (Don't worry I still will get muh shugga daddy) You feel me though?I know I'm stressing over stupid stuff, but this is just how I feel right now.
All I know right now is, I want to be a better person, and make someone else's life better. I want  to know I made a diference.

Tell me what you guys think..Love love love.
xoxo
LL

Christmas in 312!

So, we've been decorating (or trying to decorate) our apartment!

One day I came home from work to a precious little winter wonderland!! Chan and Morg went shopping, and started to decorate. It's so cute, we have ornaments hanging from the ceiling, and I want to keep them all year round! I think they look so cute. Today I bought this huge stocking to hang on the outside of our door, and we all wrote our names on it. We still need a tree though!
ANYWAYS, me and C we're super bored, so I decided to give my fellow bloggers a little look at our apartment. Hahaha don't judge, we're poor college girls! But its presh.
Pause my playlist at the bottom, there is music.. and we didn't even plan it.

YAY! So much love to errone!
P.s. Check out my count-down to Christmas on my fashion blog!

lexitup.blogspot.com
xoxo
LL