sooo we are moving out. in less than 2 weeks. it's crazy to think how fast time has gone. i can't believe i'm turning 20 this year. i can't believe i'm in college. i'm still having a hard time accepting that i'm old enough to drive(no seriously though), let alone be this grown up! haha who are we kidding here, i'm a 7 year old trapped in a 19 year old body, and it will probably always be that way. but you catch muh drift.. right?
my story:
(caution my dear loved ones: this gets kinda churchy and serious, so if you're not feelin that kind of thing, you should probably go back to stalking someone on fb)
a few weeks ago i was at work and it was really, really slow. this very lds looking fatherly figure of a man (we'll call him mr dad) came in by himself, and we got talking to each other. he asked where i was from, why i was here, etc. i told him i was attending UVU and he said his daughter was wanting to go there this coming fall and asked my opinion on the school.
side note: i'm soo used to people saying, how's college? do you like your school? blah, blah, blah, so i've come to just automatically saying this accidentally, recited answer, "it's so fun, i love it! uvu is a really good school!"
well today i felt different. i felt like saying exactly how i felt, since it has been on my mind a lot lately.
L: i like it. i've learned a lot, but its very liberal, which i'm not used to.
mr dad: that is what i have heard. what do you mean when you say liberal though?
L: its just very, opposite of every thing i ever learned. gay rights, very democratic etc. i feel like a lot of the professors try to secretly shove their thoughts and opinions in our heads.
mr dad: and how has that affected you?
L: i guess it's just made me become more open-minded. i've actually really liked getting to see different views people have. i guess you just have to know what you believe.
mr dad: well, it sounds like you know what you believe.
after he left, i kept thinking about what i had said. it was an unconscious answer, but it meant a lot to myself that i said that.
your first year away from home i think in a huge way, will shape you into who you will be for the rest of college, maybe even life. or at least shape you into realizing how you want to be. if that makes sense.
its like, your parents have taught you every thing they could, and then they just set you free. its all up to you.
i'm not even gonna lie, its been so hard to wake up and go to church willingly, without my mom screaming at me from upstairs. i haven't been the best at it either, i definitely could have been better this year. but with that said, my testimony has been strengthened a lot this year.
-i've been making more money than i ever made at home working, and i have learned how important paying tithing is. i know how blessed we will be if we pay our tithing. it took me a while to realize how important it is, but i finally get it.
-i've also realized how important it is to be around people who lift you up. this is an obvious, and always has been to me, but it hit me really hard this school year how i can choose entirely who i want in my life. who will make me a better person. its hard sometimes, but it pays off to rid out the negativity in our lives and bad influences. or at least be around those people a lot less, and when we are, we should try to be that person that lifts them up.
-like i said, my school is liberal. especially since i'm a communications major. the professors are so talented and smart, they just have very strong opinions, and i love it. i really do, i love arguing, and people having different views, but its made me have to realize what i stand for. you can't just float along when you're around that kind of stuff, or else you'll drowned in something before you even realize it's got ahold of you. this one is a huge thing for me, for reasons people really close to me understand.
so all in all, this year has been successful. freshman year, you have been great to me. i have had soooo much fun. there is so many memories that i will NEVER forget. it has helped mold me as a person, in a very good way.
i know this is a lot of blabbing, but i just felt like i should write about it.
it's like that quote,
you have to stand for something, or you'll fall for anything.
xoxo
lex
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