thankful

Since Thanksgiving is like a week away, I've been thinking lately of how grateful I am for everyone and everything in my life. I know it sounds super cheesy, but seriously! We take so much for granted.. I just thought I'd make a list of the things I'm really really really grateful for!

My Family

My Dad- Me and my dad didn't have the closest relationship through my tween/teen years. Now that I look back I realize that I was just a big brat, that was really ungrateful for how much my dad does for our family. The last year at home though I really grew to appreciate my dad and all he does. He is AMAZING! Not to mention he's a maniac. He won a 400 mile bike race.. like more than once. He is a true example of hard work and dedication- and how much it really pays off. My dad is one of the most awkward people I know.. which makes me love him even more. Even though he's so embarrassing. My dad encourages me to be successful, and do what I want to do. He is so supportive, and really really smart. Oh and a little hilarous thing about my dad, he is a twitterer. Hard-core. Follow him he'll be ecstatic :)

My Mom- My mom is so amazing. I know my mom will always, no matter what be there for me. One of the things I most appreciate about my mommy is how honest, and just raw she is. I remember even when I was little if I had gotten in a fight with someone or something she never automatically took my side (like most moms) she always asked what I did to make that person mad or sad or whatever. My mom will tell me the complete honest truth, which I think is a really good thing. She always puts herself last, which I have always hated, but she does it because she loves all of us so much. My mom wants nothing but the best, for all of our family. She is so encouraging and uplifting. Sometimes, growing up I thought my mom was too honest with me, but I know she thinks the world of me, and wants me to be the best I can be. My mom is also one of the awkest people I know.. and once again.. makes me love her even more. If you want to see something funny, watch my mom text with her one finger, not gonna lie though- she busts out the texts like no other mother I know.

Hannah Nicole- Heens is my best friend. If you would have asked me like 3 years ago about how close we were I would have laughed. The past couple years she has honestly grown into one of the most beautiful, natural, talented, realest people I know. She knows what she likes, and what she doesn't. She might put up a front, but she cares SO deeply for everyone. She is really non-judgemental also. I've noticed she doesn't really judge anyone till she gets to know them. She doesn't like to show emotion. She will act like everything is just chill, or fine, when really she has so much emotion built up-which I hate. She thinks her life is gonna go no where, but I know if she wants to do something, she will. She can honestly be whatever she wants to be in life. I love her so much, and hope she realizes how amazing she really is.

Sydney McCall- Syd has also grown up so much the past year. She is one of the biggest nards I know. She does the ugliest faces and the ugliest laughs, and her friends just think it's the funniest thing in the world. She is EXACTLY how I was when I was her age. I was always the goofy one making my friends laugh. She has gotten so pretty the past year too! It's so weird to see her wearing mascara, but if she is already this pretty, I can't imagine what she's gonna be like when she's older. She is also very very determined. She wanted a horse, begged and begged, and got two. She wanted a phone and was told not till she was 14, and got one like last year. Pood is also so talented. She will be able to cheer, play soccer- do anything she wants to do in high school. She has so many possibilities that will come into her life. I love her!

Luke David- Where do I even start with him? Our family WOULDN'T have been complete without him. I'm so glad my mom finally gave me a little brother. I know we are 11 years apart, and it makes me so sad to think I won't be there to see him grow up. Everyday I hope he doesn't forget about his favorite sister! Just talking to him on the phone is so sad to me, because he sounds SO much older every time I hear his voice. He is a stinker, but he is the cutest thing on the planet. He is going to be a heart breaker. One of my most favorite things is when I have gone home to visit, when he see's me he runs up to me and hugs me so tight. I miss him sooo much.

My family is so amazing, and it wouldn't be complete without any of us. I am sooo lucky to have each of them in my life!

My Friends- I seriously have the best friends in the whole world. I know everyone says that, but I mean it. I don't know how I got so lucky to have all these amazing people in my life... but I do! I wouldn't be the same person I am without my friends. I think I'm gonna get one of those license plate holders that says "My friends are better than yours". Haha anyways, here we go!

(No Specific Order My Peeps..)

Shalli Nicole- Me and Shall go way back to the days when she was sooo cool cause all she wore was hollister and she was the only person younger than me with a cell phone.. gotta love it. I'm soo glad Shall ended up trying out for cheer her sophomore year, because that's really how we gotta know each other and become friends. I know Shall is ALWAYS down for anything. Shall will always tell me the truth. She is super talented, honestly, at anything she wants to be good at. She listens when I wanna complain, and makes me laugh when I'm don't feel like laughing. We have soo many memories just in the past 3ish years that we've gotten close. I can't wait for the day when we move to Cali together and just be hardcore beach bums. Shall has gone through so much more in her life already than I can even imagine going through in my lifetime, she is one of the strongest people I know, and I look up to her so much for that. She hasn't broke at all under any pressure, just gotten even stronger. Shall is soo beautiful, it makes me sick. I love you Sally!

 

Morgan Priscilla- Morgan is one of those people that can brighten your day so easily. Everybody loves Morgan. I think what me and my best friends love most is that we know a different side to Morg no body else does. I mean, Morg is always happy and laughing and funny, but she is honestly the most funny when she's not even trying to be. She is naturally funny and really doesn't have to try.. even though she does sometimes (hahaha) She is also one of those girls who is so pretty without make-up its disgusting. Me and Morg can sit and laugh about nothing for hours. I am so glad Morg could move up to Orem with us this year.

Chantelle Judy- We've been best friends for going on I think we figured out, 7 or 8 years. Anyways- a long time. I didn't know about all the stuff I was missing out on in my life until I met Chan. She is easily one of the funniest people I know. We have had plenty of times where we pee'd our pants from laughing too hard(to this day, I do not kid you). We've done everything you can imagine best friends doing. We have both gone through a lot since we met, but are still the exact same people and our friendship is still the same. We sometimes talk is this baby slash grandpa voice to each other and we don't even know we are doing it most of the time it's so awk. We have twin telep, dead serious. I just know she understands me, and I the same to her. I am so thankful to have her living like 2 steps away from me, anytime I need a laugh or to smile all I have to do is peek my head in her door or yell her name. Yay for best friends!

Alexis Marie- (cause I feel like it) Lets just start this off with, I couldn't be anymore proud to share a name with someone. I haven't known Lex that long, but since we've met she has had such an influence on me. I'm so glad we became so close my senior year, because without her in it, it wouldn't have been the same. Lex is one of those people you meet who like leaves an imprint on your heart (k sounds so lame but SERIOUSLY!) She is such a good example to me, even though she's a year younger. She is good at everything. It's not fair. She is so pretty, but she is even prettier on the inside (if thats even possile). Like its on of those effects where she is so pretty inside and out, it like pours out everywhere and she's just like this glowing gorgeous person. She pulls people in with her laugh and smile, she really is amazing. I hope she decides to move to Provo next year and be my roomie! Love you Lex!

Megan Lee- Bucky, Bucky, Bucky, where do I even start. Buck is one of the most genuine people I know. She will most likely drop anything to help anyone she can. Buck is sooo talented, she can do anything. Buck is also SUCH a good example to all of us in our apartment. What I love about Meggie is she pretty much laughs at everything I say, so then I feel way pop. We just are on the same page with life a ton of the time, and totes understand each other. She is one of the people I can ask about my outfit without her judging it too, because she gets muh style. I hope our life-long dream comes true and she can marry my cousin when he gets off his mission, so we can be sisters. I luhh buck! 

I have so many other great friends, that I love very much, but my fingers are tired.
I am one of the luckiest people in the world, I'm surrounded by such amazing friends and family- and I need to realize that a lot more often. Happy Thanksgiving errrrrbody!

XOXO,

LL

P.s. Current Mood.. Thankful, but sooo confused. AH!

liberating.

Yesterday I woke up knowing I had a bunch of stuff due today for my research paper, and I continued to put it off. I had been putting it on hold as long as possible, but knew today was the day I was going to have to do it. With that, I opened up my lap top and went to facebook. I then went to the little tab in the top right corner that said Account. A little more clicking, and scrolling, and I de-activated my facebook account. AH! It was all so sudden, and I just did it. I knew if I was going to focus that day on doing and findng research, I couldn't have facebook. It's just sooo tempting, and before you know it you've been on facebook for 2 hours when you should have been doing homework that WHOLE time. I told my friends what I had done, they gasped, searched me up, saw it was true, and then dared me. They dared me to not reactivate it till I went home on Sunday. I took them up on thaaa offa, I mean I had better things to do.
I went to school, came back a few hours later, and went to do the usual  things I do when I get home from school. Get a drink.. put on sweats.. get on FB. What a life right? Haha, then I remembered my facebook was dead! It was sooo awk, and I decided I was just going to have to do research. I did some research, did some other homework, went and got my hair done (we'll talk about that next) and came home. As the night went on I had dinner, went to the mall, (see I still put off stupid research papers no matter what) the came home to finish it all up. that's when I had this feeling to check the english blog. That's when I read the following:

NO CLASS TOMORROW NOV. 18TH! WE WILL HAVE CLASS NEXT TUESDAY THE 23RD.

Oh my goshh right? I was kinda mad. Then I was happy! I had half of my work done, and still had a while to finish. That's when I realized I had been dared till Sunday to not reactivate! I almost did. But I have decided to still take the offer and not get on facebook till Sunday.. at least. The rest of the night I already noticed I spend more time out of my room, with my friends actually talking face to face and not on FB(not like we never talk or anything but ya get me). It is now Thursday and I still haven't gotten on. Haha I probably seem like an addict, which I probably am, but it feels good. I already feel like I've put my time to better use. Facebook might be a little of the dev, I'll admit it. I know I'll reactivate eventually, but I might go even a little longer just to see. It is liberating, to not be tied down to some dumb site with pictures of people and overload of what people are doing or feeling.

On a new note... I colored my hair yesterday.
These were the steps of my hair appointment.
1. Bleach.. brushed on my whole head of hair
2. A bleach wash, aka another coat of bleach
3. Under the dryer forever, my head was on fire.
4. Wash out bleach, hair was literally yellow and orange, the color of the lead singer of Paramore.
5. Blow-dry
6. Another all-over coat of color
7. Wash
8. Blow-dry and straighten.
HOLY FETCH RIGHT?
Anyways turns out my hair is now a reddish/orangish/light brownish. And I'm not that mad. I feel soo awk, but it's going to be so much easier for me to keep going blonde now! Yes, I said blonde. I've been wanting hardcore hair change for a while, so I figured it was time. I'll post pics. Don't judge.
Right now.. I'm just accepting change as it comes.
Cool, right?
XOXO
LL
P.s. Going home for Thanksgiving, Sunday! Sooo excited!

its all in your mind.

Since I moved this has all really hit me. We all remember the little train that "could". He told himself he could get up and over the hill, and he did it.

I really, honestly believe it's true though! I think if we set our mind to someting, and tell ourselves we can do it, with NO doubts at all-the world is ours.
Haha, sooo cheesy, and sounds so easy and simple right? Sometimes it literally is. But sometimes its the hardest thing in the world. The easiest person to give into is yourself, I mean think about it. This makes me think of so many examples.. here we go!

1. Those LAME power balance bracelets

Okay, so they're like the new livestrong bracelet right?! NO! At least the livestrong bracelet has good meaning, and I personally think they do the exact same thing. I will argue with any person who is wearing one of these. It is all in your mind. You put on this bracelet and automaticially think its going to make you "better than you are"- duh you're already thinking its going to help. Its a total mental process. I mean more power to you if you want to wear one...(Mom) haha but, you can do it yourself, without some lame bracelet.

2. Working out

Just think about sometime when you were running or lifting or something.. and thought you couldn't go any farther, or lift any longer.. and pushed yourself to keep going. I've done this so many times. 5 more minutes.. 1 more mile, If our mind tells our body we can do it, we will. Its all in our mind and has nothing to do with our bodies.

 

3. Faking sick

I think back to all those times I faked sick in high school, really like at least twice a month. But I actually remember telling my mom I was sick with something, and she treated me like I had that illness, and you really start to feel like you do! I remember tons of times saying my stomach hurt, and it would start to hurt. Don't lie you've all experienced this too!
When I had Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, before surgery, at cheer people would ask me if I was hurting, or was in pain, when I was perfectly fine; and it would make me hurt! Thinking about it in my mind would cause me to start to feel that pain.

4. Lying

Sometimes even a little white lie like.. how you got your scar, or why you were late one night- telling that story more than once to someone and you start to believe that's the truth! I know a few people who lie so much they begin to belive their lies. It's like they're living a lie, but don't even realize it.

    Soooooo.. it's easy to see the whole mind set thing can be either positive, or negative. Lets just hope we choose positive. Whether its with our career, appearance- any thing you want to improve or be better at, start for your goal with not one doubt in your mind that you will fail. Just be positive and belive you can do it.. and you will.

    I think the real point of this post is to motivate... mostly myself though! I just feel like the past couple months I've been stuck in such a rut. I just need more motivation to be different, and accept change as a good thing. The past 4 years I've had cheer to rely on for always being busy. Welp, turns out I'm graduated and not cheering anymore. I need to find a new hobby, or switch something up. I just need some kind of new awesome change. Now only if I knew what I need..
Any ideas? I want to know what you guys think about this!
Stay motivated. Next post I will be a lot more. Promise.
XOXO
LL
P.S. Nordstrom half yearly sale?! HECK YEAH!

hello winter?.. i think

me and C

nom..nommm

a little too excited?

It snowed. IT SNOWED. Me C and buck went to get frozen yogurt(yummy) Tuesday night and it just started SNOWING.. Okay so really it had been tiny little flakes all day, but at night they were HUGE. It is really funny because like we're all not used to it- so when it was just coming down we went outside and took pictures and letting it land on our tongues.. all the good snow stuff. Every one thought we were so weird! People that are used to the snow and the coldness think we're freaks. We are finally being able to catch up on all the childhood memories we never got to experience! But the next morning it was freeeeeeeeeezing. So yay to snow, boo to cold. Snow is so pretty, especially when its on the mountains. I've never been one to hard-core appreciate the red rocks and such in St. George, but I am in LOVE with the mountains. They are gorgeous.
More good news.. TAYLOR SWIFT'S new cd came out Monday. I can't stop listening to it. It is her best album so far. I mean they're all pretty good, but she topped it. Go buy it, you WILL not regret it. My favorite songs are Dear John, Back to December, Innocent, Never Grow Up.. but honestly they're all amazing. She puts so much heart and soul into her songs, and you can just feel what she was going through. PURE LOVE people.

Just so turns out my birthday is tomorrow. Cool huh? Haha, I'm excited.. I mean being 19 is way better than being 18! When you meet guys around here, and they find out you are 18, they feel like a creep kinda.. well the non-creep one's feel like creeps, the creeps don't even curr. Haha did that even make sense? Honestly though I had a 30 year-old that wouldn't leave me alone, and he KNEW I was 18. So anyways, it will just feel a lot better to be 19. But it doesn't feel the same. I mean my birthday. I was scheduled to work all day.. but got someone to cover one shift, and ending up getting off the schedule at my other job(BY WHICH THE WAY I'M DONE WITH!! Thank GOSH.) So I'm going to lunch with my friendsies, and then going to a Halloween party tomorrow night. I really want to buy a cute beanies and scarfs.. maybe I'll go shopping. I'll let you guys know how if feels to be 19.. don't worry :)

So.. here's to a pretty good week. Well, so far.
Loves
XOXO
LL